Sunday, September 21, 2008

Lord help me...

Here I am at the crossroads...how willing am I to take this all the way - come rain or shine, pain or pressure? I was so frustrated this morning - after running 5 miles yesterday, followed by a back/tri workout that lasted over an hour - to see the scale exactly where it was the day before. I was faced with the question of whether I would be willing to keep this up even if my weight never moves. How's that for a tough question to one's self?

I e-mailed Tony this morning to give him a complete run down of how I've been eating, just to see if there's something more I can/should be doing to clean up my eating. Are my portions too large? Tony says to eat until I'm full. But will that work for ME? Then, after enduring ice cream cake yesterday (when I ate noodle-less lasagna) and then pizza and ice cream later in the day (while I ate a spinach salad with grilled chicken and lite caesar dressing), and then guacamole and chips and peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and kandy kakes and popcorn and grapes and canteloupe today (while I ate more noodle-less lasagna and chocolate lava cake), I finally broke down and called Tony. I knew I wouldn't be able to talk to him, because my girls are screaming in my ear all the time (in fact, I ended up having to go into the bathroom just to hear his voicemail). But his voicemail helped a lot. At least, I know I"ll make it through today.

We'll take tomorrow when it comes.

3 comments:

April said...

I know it sucks because you are missing all that yummy stuff but trust me you're not really missing it. You will get to a point where it's just life and it won't bother you that bad. It still kind of sucks but it'll get better. All the clean eating and working out WILL pay off...trust me. Just keep at it and then you'll start to see amazing things happen and you'll be glad you stuck through it!

Melissa H said...

I don't think it is the yummy stuff, per se. I think it's that scale! I just made a comment on someone else's blog. I think I'm going to put my scale away for a while. I don't want to be governed by that number. No one else but me knows what it is, anyway. :-)
Hang in there.

Health Girl said...

You're not alone!
I'm having a rough time right now myself. In the end it will come together. ((hugs))