Sunday, August 31, 2008

What's the rush??

Last night, I had a powerful thought as I was going to sleep.

Why do I always feel a sense of urgency when I begin to eat right, exercise and lose weight?

Where am I rushing off to? Time will continue to pass, regardless, the only other option is to go back to old unhealthy ways and gain weight, which is no longer an option is for me. So, what difference does it make if it takes 12 weeks or 12 months? I will begin to feel better each day, because my state of mind is connected to how I treat my body and not how it looks.

I could be at my goal weight and completely crazy in the head, feeling fat and ugly, if I was in a mindset of self-abuse and compulsive overeating. Likewise, I feel beautiful and strong right now, with 40 pounds left to lose, because I'm treating my body right.

Today is my rest day, but my sister-in-law is in town and we have a tradition of going for a 6-mile walk/jog along the Valley Green trail I told you about before. I checked in with Tony and he gave me the green light.

191 this morning, and still going strong. I actually had decaf last night after dinner and nothing more to eat after meal 6. Wasn't sure I could do it, but I did it.

I'll post again soon.

Take care,


Saturday, August 30, 2008

Down FIVE pounds already!!!

I can't believe it. I hopped on the scale this morning and was THRILLED to see 190.5!! I started this whole journey at 195.6, so that is a full FIVE POUNDS down the first week! I just have to stay the course.

Today was a difficult day, I'm not even going to lie. I woke up STARVING (and pretty much have stayed that way all day). I ate M1 at 6:30 am (egg whites w/veggies and oatmeal w/flax), then meal 2 at 10 am after a 3 mile run (whey protein w/glutamine – I added about five strawberries because I was really pooped and still had my workout to do), then worked out (an hour and a HALF – what up? I was DYING), then had the myoplex shake (M3) at about 12:45 pm. I was starving all day today! I ended up reheating the rest of the egg whites and veggies at about 2 pm (M4), but was hungry again an hour later. I just had a salad with grilled chicken and lite dressing (a little bit of shredded carrots and cabbage in the salad), and am nervous because by my count, that’s already meal 5 and it’s not even 4 pm!!!

The good news is that I'm still pushing myself, pushing myself, pushing myself. I ran three miles this morning (my girl that I run with was going close to a 6.0 mph pace - I had to walk twice), and then at the gym, I did a 3.5 mph warm up for 10 min, then did 2 sets of abs, then did 7 min on the elliptical at level 15, 115 strides/min, then a couple more sets of abs, then 5 min on the stepper at 35, then a couple more sets of abs, then did a full 20 min BFL cardio - 3.5, 4.5, 5.0, 5.5, because Tony had me doing a final 20 min of treadmill to complete the workout. I got on the gym floor at 10:30 and it was 12 on the dot when I finished. And I was DRENCHED.

No wonder I'm losing weight at this pace. I can SEE it. I can see my body changing and I can see my perspective about my body and my own beauty changing. When I look in the mirror, I already like what I see. Imagine how much I'm going to like it in a couple months, when I'm actually in a size I'm happy with, when I can wear little shirts that hang perfectly over my flat abs.

LIFE IS GOOD. And I am feeling this, y'all!!!

I still don't know how I'm going to get through the rest of this day with only one more meal, but oh, well...

Friday, August 29, 2008

Day 5

I'm tired, I'm scared this won't take, I'm procrastinating (WAY behind in work) and I could complain all night.

BUT I AM CLEAN. I worked out HARD today and ate clean. Even got over a gallon of water today, each liter dosed up with ACV, Lemon Juice and green tea extract.

I suppose if I just do tomorrow what I did today, I'll be okay.

It doesn't help that DH just can't seem to get his mojo back and eats pizza, kandy kakes, chips and meatball subs in front of me. It doesn't help that I have three little girls under 6 years old, two of which have birthdays in September. It doesn't help that I'm working over 60 hours a week.

But what does help? God. Tony. My friends. My willingness. My understanding that it's not gonna get any better, so I might as well just shut up, stop complaining and keep forging on. I emailed Tony to tell him that I was worried because I was starting to get bored. His response:

Yes you will feel strong again. As for the boredom it's way too soon for that. In fact, boredom must become a way of life if we are to KICK this lifestyle change forever. In other words, it is out of redundancy that greatness comes. No one who has ever achieved greatness has done so while working through the reality of doing the same things...over and over again. Although, variety here and there will bring some sanity :)

I just needed to hear from him. I feel much better just having gotten the email. Crazy how simple that was.

OK - I gotta go to bed. Tomorrow's my AA meeting. I have to do so much just to BE ME!! *sigh*

G'night all.

Thursday, August 28, 2008


I think not.

I did find myself fantasizing today about the day Tony would add carbs to my meal plan. I have never been a low-carb devotee - not during the Atkins Age nor the Season of South Beach. I have always clung to my fresh fruit, my squishy soft 100% whole wheat bread, my spinach pasta, my lovely baked potatoes.

Today, I started the day with a Myoplex shake, because I was too busy getting my 5 1/2 year old ready for crazy hair day (which of course made my 4 1/2 year old want crazy hair too). I downloaded my workout and was thrilled to see that it was a 60-minute cardio session. I ran the 10-mile Broad Street Run this past May. This would be cake! (Well, not cake, exactly. I may never see cake again...but that's another story.)

After dropping the girls off at day care, I headed over to my favorite trail - Forbidden Drive. Five miles of secluded trail open only to foot traffic, bikes and horseback (I passes a man on horseback in my first mile and was not unaware of how blessed I am to have my trail.). The trail extends alongside the Wissahickon Creek and there are beautiful covered bridges and waterfalls at different points along the way, and it's lined with huge trees that provide shade even in the most excruciating heat of summer. I started off at a slow jog and took it easy for the first mile. I decided to increase for a minute every five minutes and break into a run. Well, the problem with that plan is that I underestimated how the soreness of the previous three days' workouts would affect my running. In short, it SUCKED. I ended up walking and then walk/running the last 2 miles. But I finished, so I"m not going to beat myself up. I gave it my all.

And tomorrow is another day.

OK, I guess I'll leave it at that for now. More later!

Oh, and by the way - 191.2 this morning. YEAH BABY!

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Bwahahaha!!! I'm on FI-YAH!

OK, so first of all, I have to thank GOD for looking out for me on this Dreambodies program. A few months ago, I started drinking this probiotic drink called Kombucha tea. It takes some getting used to (I remember the cashier saying she couldn't take the vinegar taste), but I got used to it and then got to LOVE IT. Well, one of the things Tony swore by was this apple cider vinegar mixture to cut carb cravings and I could not get myself to drink it. Tony recommended I mix it in a big glass of water and drink it throughout the day and lo, and behold, it tastes...

Just. Like. Kombucha Tea.

WOO HOO! Today, I put it for the first time in seltzer and it is a dead ringer! And it doesn't cost $3.99 a bottle! Tee hee! I drank FOUR big glasses (like, 30 ounce glasses) today. It's helping me get my water in, it's helping me get my ACV in, it's helping me get my green tea extract in! YAHOO!

Today was a perfect day. My meals were SQUEAKY clean, my workout was a TEN (I wish the Workout Update page had a place for comments - I had some serious "OUCH - are you KIDDING me???" moments). I cannot believe how this all works - don't know if it's the ACV, the program, or if I'm just finally ready, but I am in this to WIN this. I WILL be under 180 pounds when I go to Jamaica in October. I WILL be under 170 by Thanksgiving. I am finally going to achieve my goals and have beautiful, flawless skin and a fit, toned body that I am proud of. Finally, my outsides will match my insides!!!!

Devon and I had fun this morning - today was her first bus ride and her playdate with the other children starting kindergarten (she starts on Tuesday...sniff! sob!).

Okay, I'm going on and on and on. I'm sorry I'm just excited and so GRATEFUL to finally be completely present for all the wonderful things that are happening in my life.

I'll post again tomorrow.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

I'm so tired...

But not doing bad for Day 2.

So, everyone conveniently forgot to tell me that Tony asks you to do an extra 45 minutes of cardio a couple times a week on TOP of workouts that last more than an hour. So, good student that I am, I got up at 4:45 this morning to run 3 miles with my friends (after a month off, it took me 45 minutes, I was sorry to see) and then this afternoon, I did my ab crit. It KILLED. I'm still so sore from yesterday! And tomorrow, he has me doing arms again? How will I do that?

I have to get to bed soon - I really do. If I don't get at least one full night's sleep, I'm going to be no good to anyone. I do have to say that so far, so good. I'm hungry now, but that's mostly because I'm up so late and because I only got 5 of the 6 meals in today - things were crazy. But I have not had any serious craving and have not really been all that hungry. The ACV and lemon juice must be helping. Am I a freak because I like it? I really think the fact that I had started drinking the Kombucha tea is helping me, because it sort of tastes the same.

I am so sore, I cannot even believe it. I took all my measurements (finally). Boy, that was a depressing eye opener. I just have to take it one day at a time and enjoy this journey. I am truly going to LOVE shopping for clothes again in just a few, short months. 150, here I come!!

OK - off to bed. Talk to you later.


Monday, August 25, 2008

I'm ba-a-a-ck!!

So, I'm back and in this to win this. After a rough summer - had to drop out of the triathlon at the last minute due to a medical procedure I had to have that had me on complete exercise restriction, I am completely restored and ready to ROCK!

That being said, I have some news. I am officially a Dreambodies Diva. Today was Day 1 on the Dreambodies program. (Unfortunately, I haven't yet had a chance to talk to my f2f trainer about it...I hope she will understand my decision to try something new...)

So, I am not really sure how to get this blog looking all cute and fancy like everyone else's, but I did want to get back in the game.

I know I had a great day today. I had a killer workout this morning - the first of many, I am sure. I ate CLEAN all day (am just about to make my final meal 6 and then CRASH for the night). I will try to get this thing set up with some real stats and goals and stuff soon.

This should be a really fun Fall and Winter, since I will be thin and fit and LOVING LIFE again!