ARGH - I just wrote a whole, long post and lost the WHOLE THING. Now I have to get the girls to bed.
Here's the basic gist. This is getting frigging ridiculous. I have been running miles, for hours, on top of Tony's regular workouts. My food has been clean. Today I ran SIX miles, then did Tony's ab workout with a half hour on the elliptical. Maybe it's those stupid protein bars. Maybe it's my hormones (I still have my period), but the deal is that I am 169.8 tonight. And please don't tell me to stay off the scale. That's not the point. I know it goes up, goes down, etc. etc. I also know that it is REALLY HARD to stay the course when you feel like you're not making progress. People are saying I'm looking thinner than ever, and I know I'm working hard. I'm so proud that I made it through the Easter Egg hunt without eating a SINGLE BITE of anything unauthorized. I did have popcorn. And like I said, I've been having those stupid protein bars. But other than that, I have been right on target. So, what? Is my body just not wanting to let go of this weight because I haven't been below 160 since before I got married in 2001? Am I consuming more calories than I thought? Am I overtraining? Am I just impatient?
I don't know, but the truth is that I have no choice but to hang in there and find out. Well, I do have a choice but that choice sucks. I will NOT go back to where I was, so all I can do is to keep trying to move forward. I WILL see 158 before my birthday.
Anyway, thanks for letting me vent.