I cannot seem to admit my powerlessness over food and stay stopped with compulsive overeating. Tonight, I went out to dinner, and I decided before we even got to the table that I was having bread (not on my food plan). I had three, count them – 1, 2, 3 – rolls WITH butter during dinner and I really enjoyed them. I had a bowl of cereal when I got home. Trouble is, I’m a little scared. I know I’m not like other people. I know I can’t eat whatever I want and not get crazy. I feel so frustrated that I cannot or will not surrender to my powerlessness over food and compulsive overeating.
I will commit a plan for tomorrow – I know that’s a good idea. I also commit to meditating tonight and praying/meditating tomorrow. I also commit to an online meeting tomorrow.
60 minutes of walking
Egg whites with grilled vegetables and soy cheese, oatmeal w/blueberries and flax
Squash soup, veggie burger w/soy cheese (no bread), one svg rice cakes
Whey protein shake
Turkey burger on one piece light wheat bread, grilled mushroom and onions, soy cheese, oven fried sweet potato fries, mixed greens