Friday, June 20, 2008

So, how'd I do, you ask?

Pretty well. Not perfect, but okay.

I was hungry - starving, even, by the time we got to the restaurant. I ordered soup (gazpacho with crabmeat), crabcake appetizer, and soft shell crabs with side of green beans and asparagus (no butter, sauce on the side). I didn't have any bread, didn't taste any of DH's calamari salad. I did have the crabcake and S.S. crab, despite the light breading (well, not as light on the crabcake), didn't finish the sauce because it was definitely loaded with mango and other unmentionables. Came home and tried the lava cake again. Better this time. I'll get it right, eventually. I actually think my Biotech whey protein works well with the recipe, but it does have a weird aftertaste.

I have to admit, though, I'm feeling a little discouraged. I weighed myself tonight and was back up to 187, which means it would take a small miracle for me to still see 183 tomorrow. I really, really, really want to see the other side of 180, which I know will only happen if I stay the course.

I welcome feedback and experience on the topic of patience. I know I shouldn't weigh myself every day. ASIDE from that, it would be helpful to hear what other people's experiences have been, or what has worked for them.

It's going to be a challenging weekend. My mom is here through Sunday and eating is just WHAT WE DO, even though she's constantly wanting to know "how my diet is going." I'm not sure how she will take it that I'm eating this clean, but she'll have to. And the kids, too. We're spending the day at the pool, which usually means PBJ or pizza. I am not supposed to have raw veggies post-colonic, so salad is out for me. I'll have to cook chicken and broccoli or something and bring it in a container just for me. *sigh*

OK - time to head to bed. Have to get up early for an AA meeting and then to the gym!

Take care,



Melissa H said...

I weigh every day. I do it because it keeps me focused. BUT!!!! I also do it with the knowledge that water retention, glucogen stores, hormonal changes and, yes, even the actual weight of the food in my body will make a change.
That said? I always weigh 4-5 lbs more at night than the number that I see each morning.

If you don't see 183 tomorrow, don't fret. The breading in the crabcake and sodium in the food could cause all sorts of crazy bloating and scale jumps.

No, it is NOT going to be a challenging weekend. You are happy to feel so in control of what you put in your mouth and you aren't feeling deprived of the thieves (pbj & pizza) that would rob you of your goals!

You can do this.

Heather said...

Hey Lii -

First of all, I'm so proud of you for sticking with it and especially when you're going out to eat. I cannot avoid things like the bread basket when I'm out to eat, so it is a darn good thing we rarely go out - like maybe 3 or 4 times a YEAR. Whew.

Anyhow, hang in there with your mom's visit this weekend. My own mom is arriving here tomorrow for almost a week's visit, and between her ED issues and all the angst and emotional drama she stirs up in me, I'm already stressed about it. :P Nothing to do but pray and stay strong. I've already decided I'm going to switch my daily workout "me time" from during the morning while my kiddo's in school to 5:30 so I get it in and done before my mom can tempt me to "oh let's just swing by Target or Kohl's and browse around.... Oh let's pop into Panera or Starbucks...." So like I said, I hear you and know where you're coming from!

I'll be thinking of you and can't wait to read your next update. Stay as strong as I know you are! :)

xoxo Heather