Monday, September 28, 2009

I could have sworn...


...that I posted a day or two ago. I guess not.

I'm feeling strong again. Will someone please remind me the next time I get all down on myself to see if it's that time of the month and just give myself a break if it is? I actually had a dear friend/sponsor tell me recently that she could not believe the difference in my personality when Aunt Flow is visiting. The way she described it is that under normal circumstances, I am a person who ACTS, whereas when I'm suffering from the hormonal surge that comes with my monthly visit, I am a person who REACTS. And not very well, at that.

Today was a wacky day. I woke up determined to enjoy my daughter's third birthday, but not with food. My two older daughters were home with me, actually. I sent the baby to school because she was having a big pizza party with all her friends and I figured I would just pick her up after her nap. Well my two older girls were being SUCH a pain that by 10 am, we were all screaming at each other. I called Tony in tears, because I could feel the stress getting to me, sending me into a binge, at worst a lazy, non-gym day, at best. Fortunately, I caught myself before any of that happened, and I actually ended up working out WITH my kids (I ran 2 miles at 6 mph) and then got to the gym later after my husband came home. I didn't do perfectly well at dinner, but I didn't have any cake and I offset any damage by going to bed with a cup of tea, nothing more.

I am just so grateful to have the willingness again to post, to visualize, to meditate, to workout, to eat healthy. Just make sure when I start acting like a hormonal beast in mid-October, someone will let me know!

4 comments:

Tina said...

:) Only a woman can truly understand !!!!

Melissa H said...

You are an amazing person. YOU just need to remember it! <3

rockstarmom said...

Being a woman is the hardest job on the planet. You rock and you know that in your heart...xoxoxo

Jenn said...

I am the exact same way. Most of the time I act and 7-10 days out of the month I react. I always enjoying reading these little insightful phrases of yours.